I’m not unhappy with my life. I’m not unhappy single either. I d say I’m pretty happy. Iv been single a long time. And I don’t have an issue with that.
I was reading a blog the other day about how other people kinda force friends into dating. My response was fuck them do what you want.
I have a male friend who often says to me when am I gonna start dating again? It’s become like a joke between us. He’s a tinder user.
I went to a ladies night on Saturday. One of my closest friends was there. We got one the subject of my job and men. No surprise there then lol.
In a way only a friend can she told me I’m anti social! That I’m so blinkered to idea of dating I could be cutting my nose off to spite my face. She said I’m letting my past affect me. And I use the fact I have my son as a means of not even trying. Now normally I’d tell her to button it I’m fine as I am. But the day before Id had a similar conversation with my brother. He knows what I do (but not what extent) He thinks it’s isolating. He says I might spend time flirting and having fun, but it’s not real. He thinks I hide behind it. I work from home. I only speak to clients who I’m never going to meet. He says should try online dating. That’s what he’d do if he was single blah blah. I tried it yrs ago, was terrible. I don’t think Iv heard anything positive about it since, not from a single person! Lol
Am I too used to saying screw it I don’t need anyone? Is it a waste? Do I use work in order not to actually take part in the real world? Then there’s work. When do I tell someone what I do? From the off with the fear of questioning their motives? Or wait and run the risk of being labelled a liar? I am slightly eccentric. that’s hard enough to gel with for some guys, never mind my job! lol
I never really think about dating. It’s not something I contemplate or think I need to do. I just think its odd these things all happened in the same wk. Like the universe is telling me its time or something. I’m put off online dating by the repetitiveness off it ie introduction, chit-chat, sex interview (you all know it happens lol) tick box fucking exercising! its soul-destroying. If im honest I just can’t be arsed to try anything else either. Or maybe I’m just being a lazy bitch! should I at least try to look at different options?
I’m stressed just talking about his shit! maybe its just not for me. And other people should shut the fuck up and not pressure me!