Iv been getting more and more risqué and deviant calls. It’s made me think about what’s going on with people. I’m going to talk about men as I only get calls from men. I can’t talk about womens other than my perspective.
I feel like callers are trying to push boundaries and acceptability. A lot of what I used to talk about was fantasy. Stuff people thought about but wouldn’t actually do. But I feel like the lines are becoming blurred for my callers. I’m getting calls from real life situations ie work, home (when people are around), even a sex party! They are telling me things that are very questionable, some of which I can’t print. I feel like I’m having to question them and their motives. I’m not in this job to do that. But I’m intrigued to find out how people work and why they feel sometimes uncontrollable urges to do things. There’s always a plausible reason that’s usually very thought out. I’m not saying I agree with them. But I understand their reasoning.
I’m not sure if people just feel comfortable with being open about their sexual fantasy/kinks because as a society we are surrounded by sex. Or if it’s me that enables them to be a person they want to be. But Iv definitely noticed a change in tone and a change in the levels of risk people are willing to put themselves through. It’s almost like they are chasing new highs. For instance something that might have got people of five yrs ago now seems a bit vanilla so they move on to achieve a bigger thrill.
I feel like maybe I’m a bit desensitised to it all. The reason I say this is whenever I tell anyone the kind of calls Iv had, people seems genuinely shocked. They question if I’m OK about listening and engaging with these men. They seem to think of my callers as weirdos…..but what does that make me?