I’m a complete commitment phobe. The thought of being in a relationship freaks me out!
When I told you guys about my cash cow wanting a date. I decided it was best to lose him rather than entertain the thought. I also told you guys out of all the people I chat to there are a few people I actually quite like. So apart from the long gone cash cow. There is another.
I speak to him wkly. He has the most amazing voice. We’ve been speaking over a yr.I have seen him on camera. So I know what he looks like.
On Friday just gone he said the same thing he always does about wanting to meet me in a hotel when he’s here on business. As usual I brushed him off. He normally laughs and moves on. But not this time. This time he said why not?
Why the fuck would I meet you and fuck you? As much as I think it would be fun. It’s not a good idea.
I’m single I can do what I want, in a weird way you’re already cheating on your wife with me. But right now it’s kinda risk free and I get paid! So why would I or you trade that?
His answer which made me think was this…….look I’m the one with the moral bargain to uphold. I like you. You’re very different to my wife. But I don’t want to leave her. I don’t want to date you. I just want to fuck. I want you to be in control of me. That’s something I don’t get in my life. I just want a bit of fun. On a regular basis when I’m in town.
I’d be happy if you’d accept. Mainly because we could keep it business like. A transaction. I’d pay you what you asked for. Plus for the amount of time you want. I already do that now really. Plus I’d continue to call when I’m not in town. So why not?
Er actually yes why not I was thinking. I could do with a bit of excitement in my life. He’s never going to want anything more from me. I know he’s not unhappy with his wife. What I’m really thinking is. Would it really be risk free if she found out. And if she did would it be my concern. For me it would be work. Albeit fun well paid work. I’m just a chick who’d be facilitating his infidelity. I could be anyone. He’s already paying me for sex in a way. But should I do it? Am I going down a road I said I wouldn’t? In theory it’s perfect for me. In my situation I get sex, paid and no worries about having to “get involved” in a romantic way….But im not sure if I should do it? Hmmmm