i dont normally work on the weekends. But this morning i was thinking about how people rarely expose themselves fully to their partners. Which saddens me. Looking back at the majority of men iv spoken to in the last year or so, there are very few that are open with there partners about what turns them on ie kinks/fetishes. What saddens me more is that the fear of being ridiculed or being labelled disgusting, or something along those lines could potentially ruin their relationship and everything else in their lives.
So with that in mind it lead me to think about my own situation. Iv been single a long time. Im thinking about dating again. Whats going through my mind is should i be honest about what i do from the start? Or keep it quiet for a while in the hope that they might not be freaked out when i do decided to tell them. If im honest from the start another concern is will they be with me for me, or for what i do. Now i know some people my be thinking give up what i do. But if the option is going back to a professional job, stressed, never seeing my child and putting other things infront of him. Sorry thats a none starter. I work part time and get to be a full time mum. Plus i earn good money. And i enjoy it. I get the best of bother worlds.
So anyways thats been my quandary this morning, just thought id share it. Im loving writing all this stuff down, its quite cathartic!